Sometimes life makes decisions for you. This is the most crazy time of my life, further complicated by my recent findings. But, I have to believe that God sent me this information for a reason. He wanted me to know so I can move on with my life without having to make the decision myself. No worries, no regrets, no "what-ifs" just reality. I'm not sure how or why people become disposable to us. But, I am not disposable.
Its hard, but it is what it is. Life made this decision for me and for that I'm thankful. despite its the most painful thing ever. I never have to look back and wonder what I could have done differently. I know I have done everything within my power...I am forced to accept this and that I can have the life that I have planned for myself. I can have what I want. I don't have to take the hand that life has dealt me.
I will survive this..I will be more of a person in many other ways. I will get up each morning and put more pieces together until all is fabulous. I will lean on my friends and family who will support me and I will be a new person when this is all over and done. A better person.
Karma is a bitch..and I have no regrets. therefore, I have no debts to pay to fate.Some people haven't begun to repay their debts to fate..I pity them. Knowing how much I care..I will probably be there to support them when their time comes. Until then, I am putting together new pieces today and feel a little more stronger than yesterday. Tomorrow will be another day stronger..
I will focus on myself and my loved ones..and 'it' wont win. All I have to do is keep praying to God for His love and guidance.
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